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The All-That-Is and all that has happened and will happen within it is someone’s dream.

It is your dream.

You are the dreamer.

I am the dreamer.

I am you and you are me.

We are the dreamer.

All of us dream the dream together.

Together, we are The One Who Is All.

There need not be fear or sadness surrounding death. It’s the perfectly beautiful shedding of the body and release of the soul.

I am the bird that flies.
I am the grass that blows in the wind.
I am the sun that shines.

I am the river
And the stone.
I am the earth
And the sky.

I am the Universe.
I am all things.

~Anya Phenix


Once you get to the place where the opinions of others no longer have power over you, you have a choice to either look at them with disdain, saying, “I don’t care what you think,” or to shower them with love because they are just as wonderful and special as you are.


Do Not Try

Do not try to become anything.
Do not make yourself into anything.
Do not be a meditator.
Do not become enlightened.
When you sit, let it be.
What you walk, let it be.
Grasp at nothing.
Resist nothing.
~Ajahn Chah

This message seems to be coming at me from many different directions lately. I’ve been striving and struggling to become enlightened. I’ve been trying different types of meditation. I live with “shoulds” surrounding me and whispering at me every moment that I’m awake. I’m always trying to be better, to do better, to improve myself, to make myself a better wife, mother, person. I’m never satisfied with who I am in THIS moment.

I’ve forgotten how to be still and quiet. Busyness has crept in and is fighting to stay. Will I ever be able to quiet the voices in my head? 

Each day is another opportunity to sit and accept who I am right now, to accept life as it is. Is the mystery that in order to learn stillness I must learn to accept this moment?

I’m still grasping and resisting. I’m still trying to be something. I don’t know how to do this, but I trust that since the message is coming to me over and over again, I will someday understand.

For the majority of my life I was a fundamentalist Christian, because of this I still find myself looking externally to find meaning and direction in my life. I was taught that I am unworthy, imperfect, filled with sin, and that I must look to God and the Bible in order to find truth. My mom reminded me often as I was growing up that “the heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?” – Jeremiah 17:9. This effectively taught me not to trust myself, and to expect my own heart to intentionally mislead me.

New Orleans Mardi Gras night in the tourist se...

New Orleans Mardi Gras night in the tourist section of Bourbon Street: Fundamentalist Christian protesters carry signs and shout damnations in crowd of more secular revelers. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I realized about 3 years ago that there was something amiss in many of the things I had been taught as a Christian. I felt that love was the most important part of the message of Jesus, but when I looked around at the Christians I knew and as I read many parts of the Bible, the actions and message seemed to encourage judgment, criticism, exclusivity, and hate. The God of the Bible seemed to me to be petty and vindictive, rather than loving. The consequence of not believing that Jesus is The Only Son of God being an eternity of torment in hell seemed to me to be the opposite of what a loving God would plan.

The questioning had begun, and the further I got into researching the Bible and various translations, and the ways in which the books were put together, the less I believed it to be the infallible Word of God. There came a tipping point at which I realized that I didn’t believe in the central message anymore. I was no longer a Christian. And so began the search for my truth.

Looking for truth and enlightenment, I’ve researched many religions and belief systems, and various methods of meditation. I’ve scoured the internet for anything that might help me in my quest for truth.

A while back I posted that in my search for enlightenment, I felt the Universe telling me I should “stop looking everywhere else; everything you need is inside you.” In response to this insight, I stopped reading books telling me how to find enlightenment/become a shaman/learn how to meditate, and turned my searching toward experiential things. I tried using mind-altering binaural beats, legal plants and herbs, ceremonial cacao, and meditation for astral projection and lucid dreaming. The results have been mixed, but mostly disappointing.

Last night I was lamenting my inability to have a consistent transcendental experience, and the Universe spoke again. “You don’t need a transcendental experience; you need only to love.” It was then that I realized I hadn’t really heard the message the Universe had given me earlier. Everything I need is inside me. The most important spiritual experiences of my life have come when I was pouring out love on the world around me.

I have always been motivated by love. It is my heart’s desire to love all things. I have always felt this way, but my heart has been called wicked by my mom, the Bible, and Christianity.

Love is the only solution.

Love is the only solution. (Photo credit: christiantimeless)

Today I take my heart back. I deem my heart pure, beautiful, trustworthy, and wonderful. Love is my calling. Love is what will lead me to enlightenment. When I focus on loving everyone and everything, I will find my truth and my path.

Love is my message. Love is my superpower.

English: Detail view on the Great Buddha, Chan...

English: Detail view on the Great Buddha, Changhua, Taiwan (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I am frightened by the power I feel when I am angry. I know that I have the potential to do tremendous harm – emotionally, spiritually, and physically – if I were to harness the power available to me. For this reason, I have made it a priority to learn how to control my anger.

I truly wish to do no harm.

The study of zen practices has helped so much in learning how to control my emotions, and I am currently listening to an audiobook by Deepak Chopra entitled “The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire” which has some wonderful exercises for letting go of anger, along with tools to help understand our inherent power in the universe.

I am learning how to harness all the power in the universe to focus on love, compassion, and healing.  This is my intention. This is what I desire. This is living in love with all things. This is who I will be.

I will be the embodiment of love and compassion.



Meditation (Photo credit: Moyan_Brenn_be_back_on_Jan_20th)

Your beliefs serve you up until the point at which you cease to believe in them. The power comes not from the belief system itself, but from the energy you put into believing.

All paths are The Path; all ways are The Way.

The power is in your mind. It always has been. You are the creator of your life.

Nature heart

Nature heart (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Love is the basis for any power that I have in this world and all others. It is the greatest power available – and the purest form. All those who are aligned with Love are also aligned with me.

Love seeks peace. Love seeks harmony. Love respects and honors all things: great or small, strong or weak, living or dead, young or old, person or animal, rock or tree, mountain or river.

When you come from a place of love, you are able to understand, or step into the shoes of, another person or thing. You have compassion, even for those who seek to do you harm or cause you to fail. You cannot wish negative things for any entity, knowing that what you wish for them also affects you. You desire to see everyone succeed in life and find Love.

There is a kind of bittersweet suffering that continuously remains with someone who has accepted the call to Love all things. The perception in another of any act or thought that comes not from Love is painful to the Lover. For they realize that all negative actions and thoughts come from some pain that the Other lives with or has experienced. It is a continuous, unmet desire to see everyone filled with the Love that is available to them, but that they cannot see.

I am Love. I seek to Love all things at all times. I weep for the pain that is caused by Not-Love. But I cannot ask for the pain I feel to go away, because with it also comes the greatest feeling of love and compassion I have ever known.


“Suffering is not holding you. You are holding suffering. When you become good at the art of letting sufferings go, then you’ll come to realize how unnecessary it was to drag those burdens along with you. You’ll see that no one other than you was responsible. The truth is that existence wants your life to become a festival.”



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